Bus Stop Blues

As of late I have been realising how alone I feel since moving. Yes I live with 3 other people and I have aquaintances here, but what does that really add up to? I don't have any friends.... I have never been able to fully open myself up to a person because of events that have accumulated into me not being able to trust. It's one of my biggest flaws and I am trying very hard to work on it, but I feel like no one wants to be burdoned with my inner feelings, nor would they care either way. So the more I feel alone the more I feel compelled to exert my talents, not to gain attention, but to occupy myself to the point that I don't feel so alone because I am putting all of my energy into something other than time with another person. You would be amazed at what you can get done... wierdly enough when I am on the bus is when I feel the most alone. Today I was reading a book by my favorite author, Chuck Palahnuik and I came across this amazing quote:

" That's the big question "why are you alone?" I mean we're all alone. Aloneness is.... thats life. It's the quality of our aloneness that matters. Whether it's equality or solitude. I am a solitary kind of person. I always have been, ever since I was a kid. I guess it's hard.... It takes a lot of time for me to let someone in"

So now I get to thinking ( at this point in the day ) Does everyone feel this way? Truely, deep inside do people feel like they are alone? I think they do, I don't feel so alone anymore knowing that everyone else feels like they are alone as well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And I love the fact that I just type away here and someone could possibly read it and possibly relate to me... possibly.

Oh by the way I am just about finished with my Rawk-n-Roll Series and believe me, it turned out phenomenal. They will be for sale soon.
Now I shall go pass out in oversized, lush, satin sheeted princess bed, alone... at least I don't have to share the blankets! :)